Well, I can’t deny it anymore. I am a soon-to-graduate master’s student in Global Communications Management. Our graduation ball is over and the dissertation madness has already kicked in. More and more people approach me with the same question all over again: “So, what are you going to do once you graduate?”. I answer with a shrug, mostly replying that the world is my oyster and I would go anywhere. Sounds like the perfect situation, ha? It is, but it is also pretty terrifying. Going anywhere means being on your own. Sure, you will meet new people and explore new places but that is not always easy. Settling in to a new culture, trying to make friends outside your work and making an often very foreign place your home.
As scared as I am and as much as I might be peeing my pants, that is what I am longing for. I have often asked myself whether I should just go home and take some time off before the next adventure. A little recharging from all the stress and building up the courage to leave again. Yet another time of organising a life in a place where I’ve most probably never been, another set of goodbyes, spending the last days at home with nervousness and then finally taking off again.
Or, why not stay put where I am right now? I am pretty sure there are loads of opportunities just waiting around the corner. Could be a safe and easy option! To be honest, the sheer thought of that makes me itchy. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever be able to settle down somewhere. When will this life of exhaustion combined with a constant urge to move and explore diminish? I RELISH this life but it often makes your life challenging. YAY, you moved to a new place and you can’t wait to explore. And then everyday life kicks in. All you want is to put your feet up and watch a movie. Which is okay! But when you make that decision to sacrifice a lot of things to move abroad you feel you have to make that worthwhile. So you constantly feel restless in your home caused by the oh-so-popular fear of missing out.
But, in the end I just feel blissful. I am lucky and blessed having the privilege to live this life.
I know everything will turn out even better than I could have ever imagined. My past adventures have taught me that these kinds of times are often the perfect opportunities to find something better, something that wouldn’t have ever crossed my path otherwise. It’s humbling to know how big the world is and how many opportunities could be waiting out there. None of it is out of your reach though, after all, the world is a tangible place and those who are brave enough can explore it to its most secluded corners.